Boredom

I haven't posted in a while.  Now that I'm six months into retirement I've noticed that on days where nothing is scheduled, I am bored and not terribly interested in watching television.  It feels a little like depression.  My gut reaction was to schedule more things, but that just seems like an escape.  One thing I've tried to do, with some but not a lot of success is be more present in the moment.  Dive into the book when I'm reading, focus on the television show, football game etc when watching TV.  I've got volunteer activities scheduled 2-3 days per week and try to go to the gym regularly.  I think I need to sit and figure out what I want as well as do the things that need doing.  In a strange way, I do more things when I'm busy than when I'm idle.

Who are you?
Where are you going?
Why are you going there?

Retirement

March 30, 2011 - I'm retiring after being in the workforce for forty years.  Since last night it's been unsettling, because after all these years, what do I do on Friday morning when I don't have to go to work?  I know in my mind that everything will work out the way it's supposed to.  But I am a control freak Accountant and most of my time has been scheduled.

Briones

I had today off.  The original plan was to go to the gym (done) and go bowling and use my coupon for two free games (not done because my legs were stiff and sore from the gym).  I checked out Briones Regional Park in Martinez.  I walked the trails, I sat and watched the animals, that I think were raccoons.  There was cattle grazing and it was a popular horse trail with stables nearby.  I didn't have any profound thoughts as I communed with nature, but I was and still am peaceful after the visit.  It's something I will do again.  Maybe different parks.

My eyes

I am having laser eye surgery today.  I'm excited about the outcome, but still nervous.  Mostly, I'm nervous about the time it will take to have fully functional eyesight again.  This is a busy week because it's budget season at work.  On the other hand, a lot of people have much more serious problems, so I shouldn't complain.  I know things will work out.

Quotes

• The choices you make dictate the life you live - Renaissance Man
• If the game of life ended today, would you be a winner?
• Preparation is confidence.  Everything else is beyond your control
• Between stimulus and response, there is a space.  In that space is our freedom and power to choose a response. - Viktor Frankl
• You can't always get what you want.  But if you try sometime, you just may find, you get what you need. - The Rolling Stones