I'm scared.  I feel like I'm slowly killing myself and have been for the past 50 years.  My diet sucks, I know it and I seem powerless to change it.  I know that isn't true but it's the biggest struggle in my life.  I see something and my mind shuts off and I just eat it.  One of the things that I think might work is the Pritikin Program where you stay at their site in Florida for one or two weeks.  The diet is good and it's expensive.  However, my thinking is that because it's expensive I'll feel obligated to stick with it.  Not sure that's the best motivation, but if it works...

Who am I and How Can I Change The World

I am here to serve, starting with my families.

I will change my little corner of the world by serving each person I interact with.

Things to Learn About

• Buddhism
• Artificial Beards
• Luggage

Oral Surgery

I had oral surgery last week and one of the restrictions was no exercise. I really missed it. I return today for a follow up visit and I'm looking forward to returning to the gym.

My running plan

My running plan as of October 19, 2012

• Run/walk 5 minutes alternately.
• After doing that for a solid week, switch to 4 minutes running, alternating with 6 minutes running
• After running a week at the new speed, increase by a minute the running segments, while decreasing the walking segments
• Increase the running segments until I run for 25 minutes straight.
• Increase speed as possible until I'm running 6 mph
• Increase time until I'm running 5K, 10K, a half marathon, and a marathon.

Boredom

I haven't posted in a while.  Now that I'm six months into retirement I've noticed that on days where nothing is scheduled, I am bored and not terribly interested in watching television.  It feels a little like depression.  My gut reaction was to schedule more things, but that just seems like an escape.  One thing I've tried to do, with some but not a lot of success is be more present in the moment.  Dive into the book when I'm reading, focus on the television show, football game etc when watching TV.  I've got volunteer activities scheduled 2-3 days per week and try to go to the gym regularly.  I think I need to sit and figure out what I want as well as do the things that need doing.  In a strange way, I do more things when I'm busy than when I'm idle.

Who are you?
Where are you going?
Why are you going there?